30th April

I think xiao di is taking train back home and i am here at home updating my work today.
Today ,as usual , work in the orchid house. See all those orchids makes me goes crazy.:) Get to know one of my colleagues more. She's elizabeth. At first, we didnt talk much and she doesnt look like she want to talk but suddenly ,we started chatting about a festival that is happening this weekend where everyone in a nearby town will gather and smoke drug:) hahah.She's 32 years old and we chatted some topis while doing work.
Today was a self-proclaimed slack day. As elizabeth only works from 8 to 2 pm. So, after she goes, Ali and me started doing the re-potting..( Which is put small plantlets from small plastic pots into big plastic pots.) I can say this is the slowest speed we ever go. Bcuz our in charge ( Rodney) goes off to another house to spray fungicides so the orchid house is OURS! heehee.. I build sandcastles using the soil medium, how slack can we be:) Then we go and change the radio to classical fm. hahaha..
Then gt a dog called scrap which is the dog u saw in fb, she dirtied my shirt cuz she jumped up on me.-_- luckily can easily wash off..
Today is kaiqi's birthday leh.. is your favourite kai en sister birthday.. so happy. later gg to call back. :)
Love you.
PLease, i dun like yr highlighted hair.:(

To my lovely ah yee (:

Hey darling... Really really touched you did this up even though you had the time to rest or do other stuffs. Guess you did this to cheer me up.. I really appreciate it. Thanks darling! (:

And... Is it so obvious that I'm having a rough time here? Haha, maybe I'm not that good in hiding my feelings. But really, don't worry... I settle those stuffs soon. Quite some stuffs that caused the current downfall of your xiao di. Guess I'll have to name it one by one if not someone won't let me go so easily huh. Haha. (:

I'm probably not used to work under stress yet, new sem, new modules, new stress by lecturers. Lecturers keep coming to me, saying what, "You sure can one la Keng Siang. You top in the second year, sure easy for you." Like, they expect too much from me. I don't like this kind of feeling. Makes me don't feel like studying so hard anymore. But can't help it. Don't wanna study also must. I'll be out of goals if I can't even get to university. Then still got FYP. Its out already, and I'm grouping with the John and another classmate from China who I really don't like, and can't get along with. Its FYP, not any group assignment. 6 credits project, and the in charge said you must group with someone you can work with. But there don't allow mix of people from other classes, and there's two type of FYP, phrase 1 and phrase 2. Then FYP must in groups of 3. 9 people in phrase 1. The others have groups already, and I have no choice but to take him. The reason no one in the class can work with him is because he always do things his way. The last group assignment he did with his group, or should I say he did himself caused his group to fail the project. He don't listen to anyone in his group and even if its a group assignment, he did it himself. In the end, everything went wrong. I don't wanna such thing to happen in my FYP. One thing he said to the whole class which really pissed me off. He said,"I never study already get such results, if I studied I think I can easily get top few." Like hell. Can't believe this kind of person really exist. And he's in my damn group. Great. Requested to do the FYP with John only but can't seems to happen. He's in a hospital in China right now, because of Insomnia. He'll come back on Thursday. FYP's already out and he's still can take his time there. Somehow I wished that he doesn't come back, so that he'll be taken out of my group. Then how they choose which FYP we'll be doing is based on the group's average gpa. Me and John both got 4 for year 2. But that guy's gpa is like 3.2 or something. If my group can't get the project we want, it's all thanks to him. And I'll make sure that he shut his mouth up for the rest of his life in SP.
Alright end of problems in school.

Really, how can I be not worried when my girlfriend's out in a remote place like that for 5 months. I mean, if I don't worry I think something's wrong. Very wrong. But I guess I'm overdoing it. Maybe I worried too much. I never felt like this before. Not ever in my life. Having someone I really loved out for so long. Can't even see her smile for so long. About that day... I know its not your fault for not picking up the calls. Don't worry, I never even thought of blaming you before. (: Maybe I'm just too worried. Sorry for scaring you that day... I know its not going to help by saying I don't mean it... I'm just not myself lately. And actually... I'm still thinking about what Alicia said. I'm acting like I don't trust you at all. But I really really do trust you. Give me sometime to cool down, settle everything and I'll be alright. I promise such things won't happen again. So worry not. (:

Remembered how we met after O levels? If you hadn't took MRT to school, if I never tapped you and said"Pei Pei?", if you never stared with me with the "who the hell are you?" face, all these wouldn't had happened. (: Its a small incident, but definitely something unforgettable and special. Hehe. Even though we had only been together so such a short time, somehow, seeing you, makes me remember how much fun we had when we were young. You tearing my shirt and stamping my shirt with ink. Hahaha! And now.. the violent little girl who grown up to be the Sexy Chong is with me. (: I'm really glad all these events happened. Making you more precious than anyone. Making me wanna squeeze your face even more. ):

Actually, there's no need to rush to inform your parents about us if you are not prepared yet. I'm really fine as long as I get to be with you. We live in our own world right. Hahaha. Hey hey~!Don't worry anymore. I'm alright already. I've vent everything here already, so I'm feeling a hell lot better. (: Hope you don't mind me critisizing people so much.

I love you darling. Even though we are apart, my love you will never part. (:

TO XIAO DI

This is a blog created just for the two of us as our alternate communication tool.
I know that you worry about me coming to australia with no family around and i am sorry for letting you worried when i never answer your phonecalls. i didn't mean it. I know you really love me and i love you too. Let me slowly earn each other's trust and make this relationship works.
Throughout my life, i have never thought that long distance relationship could ever happen to me. But here you are, appear in front of me and make all this happen. I never wished or hoped for something like this to happen to me and i thank you for all you have done, to give light to my life.

You are someone whom i can trust on,
You are someone whom i can talk to,
You are someone whom i can lean on,
You are someone whom i can love,
You are someone whom i can share my feelings with.

I feel terrible even though i say that it will be over very soon and i know you feel terrible as well. THe time we had was very short . Its just like having your favourite food been sent away and cannot eat it for a long time. Its just an analogy okay, i am not your food:P Although it just a short time , i know we had spent it well and made ur promise to each other.I have never believe that you will appear in my life and it makes me believe that love comes so sudden, very sudden. Before knowing you, i told myself that i could never ever find anyone to be with and nobody would choose me, really. Until that day when we saw each other, until the second time we saw each otheragain, i realised this is abnormal and something magical is happening. You made my life turn around ,just like going on the roller coaster.
You put life into my life, making me feel that there is love just right here. I know you put thoughts about our future and i am very glad to hear u saying, This makes me happy and contented on all that you did.
I will try my best to do whatever it takes to do up a good future for us.
I really plan to tell my family about this ,when i go back ,really..
I know we will go through this and be together ,back in singapore.
Its just 4mths left , lets hope time flies faster .
I know you are still abit (dunno is disappointed/sad/moody). I just think so bcuz u dun joke ard with me and i find it weird.
ANyway, this blog is just for the two of us, no one else.
Just let this be our secret hiding place, I love you.